Nate MCBC-Bullock

I wrote a poem for the first time in ages.  I think i will work with my cousin and make it into a song.  but yeah, here's the poem. It's called "Go See About Them."

Dear God,

I have a friend who needs you

The whole that is in her heart only sees you

But she tries to replace you

In a strong attempt to disgrace you

Saying she doesn't need you

God go see about her

There is this little boy down the street

He lives in the little green house that looks off beat

He is in a struggle for peace

But knows only trouble indeed

He doesn't know where to turn

God go see about Him

My family is falling apart

Each feels nothing but their own stalling heart

I look in their eyes and see hate

Everything in life now is a debate

For one after the other, there is a grudge

God go see about them

My friend has an imperfect past

But before you will no secret last

She knows of you

But hypocrisy clones you

She can't seem to grasp your true name

God, go see about her

God please let my prayers be heard

The lives of these lost are not insured

I know your hands will touch

Let my prayers availeth much

In Jesus' name I pray

Amen

I have certainly calmed down with the blogging.  I haven't posted a blog in a good two weeks!  Anyway, I HAVE AN ANTHEM! lol.  It's this song on Kierra Sheard's CD "This Is Me" Here are the lyrics.

Verse 1
Can somebody tell me what's going on now
It seems like there's so much confusion in the streets
I heard somebody ask what happens when you die
That's when I stepped in and said
If you don't know my God
You might go to a place that's burning hot
Then we got into this big argument
That didn't make no sense
But it is what it is

I'm just trying to get you to see truth
There's no truth in what you do
You're simply blind to the fact
That I really got your back
And I ain't gonna lie to you

Chorus
If you think you're living right
I'm the one to tell you that you gotta get it right
If you think that you gon' make it just cause you so nice
I can tell you "no other way" cause
It is what it is.

Verse 2
Now we can sit here and talk about this all day long
And chances are you would still be wrong
You can't tell me nothing about this
Trust me, man, you can't get into heaven without this
It's like I was born on a pew
I know what to do
I really don't understand why it's so hard for you
I will continue every night to pray
But the fact is you gotta be saved

I'm just trying to get you to see truth
There's no truth in what you do
You're simply blind to the fact
That I really got your back
And I ain't gonna lie to you

Bridge
Don't make yout ime on this earth worthless
I just want you to see that you need to be serving
I'm not telling you to live like me, I'm just birthing
Something in your soul, and trust me. It's worth it.

I love this song.  Aside from "Why Me,"  this is my favorite song on that whole CD.  cause I can relate like... word by WORD I can relate!  This is my anthem as one of God's adopted children, trying to make it so others can become brothers and sisters in Christ.

I was expecting to be on a six-day fast, but it only turned out being for a few hours.  i wrote this earlier.  This was why i fasted (though I didn't know at the time)

Forgiveness

Lord I come to you only to ask for forgiveness and mercy as I continue this fast.  God I want so much to please you in everything I do, but I continue to fall time and time agani.  Please extend to me your mercy again, oh God.  Wash me, Lord.  Clean me up so I can live as much of a holy lifestyle as I possibly can, because I want to please you, as any adoptedchild would want to do.  God I don't drink, I don't smoke, I don't cuss, I don't go clubbin', and I don't listen to secualr music, but none of that even matters, because there are still things that I do do that need to end so that I can grow closer to you, but I can't seem to stop.  It's times like this that I am greatful for the mercy you show your poeple, otherwise, I would have, and should have been stoned a long time ago.  But you said "No.  I will show Nathan mercy, so he can live for me, and show people that I am indeed a merciful and wonerful God."  God, words cannot express my grattitude for you being who you are as God.  You are kind, merciful, and forgiving.  And I didn't even have to offer a sacrifice to earn it.  You just gave it, just because.  And that's why we call youa  merciful God, simply because you are, and I thank you for it.  THANK YOU!

I feel like this was like why i fasted, just the whole point for God to show me the real extent of his mercy.  i mean it really got me thinking about had Jesus never died. So not long after this was written...  I ended my fast.  But I'm going to fast again soon, maybe saturday, till after church on Sunday, where my fast was going to end originally.

I was riding in the car with someone, and they were playing some Avant when they came to pick me up.  I offered to put in Tye Tribbett's new CD, the first thing they said as that he was too secular... even though they pulled up blasting Avant's newest album...  hmm...  It really got me thinking about a lot of stuff...

All the time, I encounter people who will say this and say that...  but they have their things that they don't want to let go of.  And then there are those who seem they CAN'T let go of things... but mostly I meet people who don't feel the NEED to let go of the ungodly things.  But it's like... why hold onto it?
     We are temples of God...  we should treat our lives and our bodies as such.  We should let go of everything that don't glorify God.  All the music we like...  if it doesn't glorify God, it's idolatry to listen to it.  If it's not glorifying God, then it glorifies something OTHER than God.  It could be the artist who made the song, could be a song to get you to glorify yourself, or something else.  It could glorify money, sex, material things...  but God doesn't get the credit for the song.  When God gets the credit "Lord you are..." "Thank you, Lord for..."  "Jesus is..."  "Jesus you did this... Jesus you did that for me" then that is worship to him.  but if the song gives credit to anything but... that is worship to that thing, not God..  Worshipping of idols is idolatry.  There.  I explained that.
     But it's not just music.  Idolatry is that drunk who refuses to put down the beer bottle.  It's that boy who refuses to stop watching pornography.  It's that girl who loves her Aaliyah, and her D'Angelou.  it's that other one who watches all that TV instead of going to pray.  that boy who can't stay off the computer, and the one who would rather talk on the phone, than talk to God.  ANYTHING put before God is idolatry!  So I ask....
     What are we willing to give up for God?  Would we be able to give up America's Next Top Model for one season?  Would we be able to leave myspace if we had to?  What are the things you are having a hard time just letting go of?  i think everyone has there things..  Even if it's not extremely obvious... many of US have things that we put more worth to than we should.  Try your VERY BEST to put God before ALL things.  Even the music you like and the books you read.  Don't read books more than you read your bible.  You can't be all up in Sisters of the APF and be trying to hide the Word in your heart.  The APF will kick the word right out.  They conflict WAY too much.  I know from EXPERIENCE!  Leave it alone. lol.
     Yo, don't think I am judging or nothing like that.  "OH YOU POINTED ME OUT IN YOUR THING!!!!!"  No it's not like that.  I'm calling what I see.  And if you happen to fit the mold, ask God to give you the strength to break the mold (I just had a de javou).  Have you ever heard preachers say that the messages God gives them are not only for the congregation they preach to, but for themselves, also?  This is not just for the reader, but the writer as well.

I read something G. Craig Lewis sent me (he has daily words... I read them)  that was interesting...  but then I read his suggested reading.  This scripture pricked my heart and humbled me in SO many ways.  THIS is why I'm thankful for the Word of God everyday, because it has th power to show you your whole self and your true self, FOR REAL!  it is the entire 3 chapter of 1st John.

1 John 3

What has this scripture shown you?  i know it showed me lots, that need changing.  i now have a goal for my daily life.  To be able to say that I don't practice sin, and that i can indeed have confidence in the Lord, much like the elders of my church.  Three cheers for the word of God, and it's power to change the lives of those who open themselves to the true words of God.

Hip Hip HURRAY!! Hip Hip HURRAY!! Hip Hip HURRAY!

Song of the Day: Do It Again - Lisa Page